Gay romantism

• 16 June 2008 at 21:55
• Love, sex, etc., Revelations

People say I'm not a romantic...

This morning, I'm about to take my train when I come by this guy. In his thirties, pretty hot, un regard de braise (burning eyes, litterally). He looks at me and I look at him. The message has been transmitted. But I have to run to get my train, I'm late. Fortunately, I miss it and I must go to the other platform where the guy went. I stand close to him, we are kind of seeking each other. We get onto the train, face to face, we look at each other, we smile at each other. This game keeps going for two stops and he must get off. He looks at me meaning something like "what a shame".

"What a shame". I hate that idea, "what a shame". Like "we could have but no we can't". Of course yes we can!

I get off the train. I'm already late anyway. I chat him up and asks him for his number. He gives me his number, his name, asks me how I am and then he kisses me on the mouth. Just like that. Naturally, without wondering any question, right in the middle of the Tube platform.

How long had it been since I last kissed a man in a public space? Whether you like it or not, kissing in a public space is still a way to exist, to affirm their identities, to think: "Yes, I like men and I don't give a fuck about what you think". It's still an act of strength, of courage, nearly of militantism. I still have the feeling I am transgressing something when I kiss a man in public, even in London. It makes the act so special, so much stronger than with straight people, so much more romantic actually.

I don't have any illusion. The guy and I are probably not gonna be more than a few parties de plaisir (pleasure parties). But I have a very positive feeling.

I told it to some of my housemates, Andy and Luke, two straight guys, they were gutted that I could pull someone in the Tube so easily: "If I ever did that to a girl, she would call me a weirdo!" I was very proud. Once again, I find positive sides in being gay.

I meet up with the guy on Thursday evening. He answered my text message by saying he looked forward to it.

PS: don't you think this post lacks of pictures?

PPS: I wasn't even shaved! For FOUR DAYS!

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