The Loneliness (Part 3)

• 14 November 2007 at 22:01
• Diary, Love, sex, etc.

The number of couples in London is quite impressive. At work, I'm the only singleton. Some are gonna say it's because I'm gay but I don't think that's the reason. I know a few gay couples. Maybe it's because I'm too self-centred and selfish. But it doesn't mean anything, since Ada is single too! Maybe it's just because I haven't found the right one. Or because nobody thought I was good enough!

Maybe it's also because it's my thing. Having a man by your side when you need a hug (or more) is great. But having a man to do everything together, have dinner constraints and fighting over stupid stuff, no. If I ever have a man, the main rule I will impose will be: "NO FIGHT OVER SHIT"!

• Ah Juju, how so pathetic you are when you try and justify your failure in love... (<-- My other self speaking.)
• I'm not trying to justify some failure, I try to anticipe future failures and get prepared to a singleton life!
• Loser. You give up just because you think you're too dull and also because you don't want to make any effort to change.
• Change? Change what? Change my body by hitting the gym? Having a hair removal session? Go sunbathing? I don't want my man to love me for my body. And, I don't have to change on the first place anyway!
• You don't want you man to love you for your body? Then he should love you only for your "mind"? Like a separation between these two concepts is possible! Especially in love. Moreover, your mind isn't any more exciting than your body. Of course you cannot change but you can evolve. Besides, your latest boyfriend wasn't fighting over shit. You were!
• Don't talk to me about this stupid coward and, most of all, do not imply he's right on anything!

And this is how I ended one of my several inner fights...

Otherwise, a very interesting article by Vincent Cespedes.

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