I hesitated before publishing this series of posts because it's very personal and also very pathetic. I had talked about modesty on this blog. Well, fuck that. I really feel like talking about this sentimental adventure that has been very short but full of surprises. Now I have to warn you, there is going to be 7 posts, you're gonna have to eat them all week long! Oh, I know what you think, that those who make a mountain out of a short relationship have an easy heart. I thought the same thing before it happened to me!
The first time, nothing. I knew there was many men into him, but I clearly wasn't one of them, he didn't cause any effect on me. I remember having a crush on some boys just by seeing them. But this time, no. I didn't feel anything. We talked. He was interesting, funny, even though it looked like we had different opinions on a some things. I remember having conversations with guys that changed my vision of things, and that was making me attracted to them. But this time, no. I still wasn't feeling anything. And then, I had the feeling, on the dancefloor, that he was hitting on me. I thought "Why not?". So I started to hit on him back.
And then we had sex. And this time... WOW!!! While reaching the climax, I felt something very intense, unknown and indescribable. For a few seconds, I was somewhere else. A bit like the sound of the sirens. I remember, though, sleeping with men who gave me a lot of pleasure, but it never drove me crazy for them. This time, something happened. And just like that, suddenly, I stumbled into the irrational.
Chimera:- Mythological creature with the head of a lion, the body of a goat and the tail of a snake.
- Organism composed of two different genotypes (sometimes more).
- A dream that is impossible to fulfill
I had to wait for two hours in the waiting room before my second gastroscopy. On my chair, I was so tired and dizzy because of the medication that I got into a dream.
I was high in the sky, in what was some kind of giant sphere. There was a lot of air, the light was warm and sifted, it felt very good. Inside this mechanical structure, there was a big red sheet floating in the whole space. I was floating inside too. The sheet was getting deeper in its centre, and there, there was someone.
This person, it was him... and it was me! This person, it was him and me at the same time.
He was indicating me to come to him. I was letting myself slide in the middle of the winds and the heat...
And the fucking nurses came to put a canular into my arm.
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