The mysteries of DMT

• 08 July 2009 at 18:14
• Revelations

Bernard Werber imagined a theory that, when you die, a substance called DMT is released in the brain. DMT is a natural, very strong hallucinogenic substance whose effects are rather short but extremely intense, as they can even cause a near death experience (seeing the light and stuff...). Some think also that, when some subjects say they have met aliens, it's actually this substance acting in their brains.

If Weber's theory ever happens to be proved, quite a few questions will be raised about the role of this substance, from a darwinist point of view: what does it bring to the individual, regarding natural selection, if they are bound to die anyway? Maybe is it also the chemical manifestation of the underworld. Anyway, it's just a theory...

However this substance has many fans. By the way, in Latin America, this substance is used in shamanic rituals. There's been quite a lot of "research" on the subject. And on Internet, there are many testimonies telling the experience of DMT. But the funniest of all is the video of this charming geeky girl who tells how to take DMT anally.

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Vertigo Vertigo

• 06 February 2009 at 00:39
• Diary, Revelations

All these emotions bring something though. They give me back the feeling of vertigo, that I had not felt this way and this strong for ages! When I realise that there are so many things in the world... There are all these things, all these precious moments for each and everyone... I would love to concentrate them inside me, at the same moment, at the same place, and then feel what would be come kind of "supreme holy moment", the holy moment as they call it in Waking Life. Hey, by the way, I saw the entire movie was on Google Video!! I'm telling you, have a look:

It's difficult to explain this feeling, I've never seen anybody talk about it before, except maybe in this particular moment in American Beauty... Oh hey, I found it too, on YouTube!

It happens to me a lot with music. There are a lot of different music tracks that I like, that really have the potential to remind me of things or reach something deep in me. But they are all very different and they touch something different as a result. I often fantasise I can unite all these tracks in one, which would then be the perfect track. And simply by listening to the track, I could recall it forever and then contain in me and make me feel all these emotions, or rather, this sacred emotion, just by thinking of it.

I know it also happens to me with TV shows, movies, but also people I'd like to keep close to me (I told you of The House), memories, places, situations (for example, I love watching the sky at night on my own), all these emotions. Oddly enough, it reminds me a bit the Chimera, this impossible oneiric combination. But given that it is only about emotions, maybe it's actually possible, in the imagination.

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The House

• 25 November 2008 at 00:03
• Revelations

Image credits: Lawrence Tarantino, A.I.A.

When I was a kid, I had a dream with my twinsister. During holidays, when we slept in the same bed, we used to spend long nights telling each other stories. There is a story I remember particularly well: the one of the flying bed. We would imagine we lived on a giant flying bed and all our friends were on it as well. We could go anywhere, by flying and being warm in the warm. All our friends were here. It was our little utopia. Yeah, it shows we were some kind of lazy arses, but hey...

Oddly enough, this dream stayed. Since then, it evolved. Now I happen to think sometimes of living not on a flying bed, but in a big house, with lots of rooms, where my friends would live. A house that would be in the countryside (and I'm so urban!), that would be full of comfort (oh yeah, a big bar here and a living-room with a cinema screen there!), would be green (I remembered that dream when I saw a house that won a price, it was big, in the countryside and energy-saving...) and would inspire serenity (yes, I imagine all my friends would get along very well all the time, which is impossible).

Is it the community instinct? Is it the "clan" instinct? Maybe nations were born like that, people who wanted to live together harmoniously around some values...

The funny thing is that I kind of already live like that, in a big house with about twenty rooms, above a pub. It is far from the dream, but it looks a bit like it, at least on the most important part: being surrounded by people I like.

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Modern prose

• 03 October 2008 at 18:40
• Revelations

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Yes, this is a spam, like many I receive in my comments.

I don't understand why the guys waste so much time in automating such nonsense. A simple "I LOVE YOUR WEBSITE!!" would be much more efficient! (I would publish this kind of spam, for sure.)

Nevertheless, you must recognise that this leads to the birth of texts with sibylline charm.

Robots, poets of the 21st century...

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The crisis, dreaming

• 26 September 2008 at 16:02
• Revelations, Politik Pop, Crisis! Crisis!

You probably know about it... The world is going through a crisis!

Financial crisis of course, with hundreds of billions dollars given to banks to safeguard a faltering system, when organisations fighting against AIDS, hunger and poverty must struggle to get one million. Energy crisis, especially because of the price of oil that has skyrocketed the last few years. Environment crisis, with global warming that could literally submerge the world. And I'm only talking about the most talked-about crises. There are a lot of other problems being ignored or forgotten...

But oddly enough, I think that the economic crisis that is happening, this recession that is said to be upcoming and dangerous, is a great moment. Yes, the crisis, that is gonna make a lot of people unhappy (nevertheless, it has to be stressed that there are already a lot of people suffering), makes me dream.

Yes, I want to believe that this is the birth of a new world, that this is an opportunity to make the world fairer and more harmonious.

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21st Century Hero

• 24 September 2008 at 22:19
• Revelations, Politik Pop

The 21st Century Hero lives ethically
He buys sustainable products
Favours fair trade
Eats organic

The 21st Century Hero (usually) votes for the Left
He works for non-profit organisations
Gives money to charities
Reads news of the world

The 21st Century Hero is a marvellous friend
He listens to and understands the others
Knows how to help them
Had a stunning sense of humour

The 21st Century Hero does a lot of self improvement
He takes time to meditate
Exercices
Is a beast in bed with his partner

The 21st Century Hero is not a celebrity
He understood progress started in individuality
Didn't give up on solidarity
Had ideals and plans

The 21st Century Hero
I wish it would be me
I wish I will become him
I have to be him

(Yes, I did reuse the image for History in the making!)

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History in the making

• 10 September 2008 at 15:57
• Revelations

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Quantum physics killed me #3/3
Living for real

• 08 August 2008 at 12:29
• Revelations

My children will never exist. My pleasure is not a viable goal. My theories about the future have proven to be wrong.

Existing, what is it?! From a down-to-earth point of view, living is existing. But living is not enough. It's like art, litterature, music: they are useless but we need them so much. Giving a meaning to your life is not necessary but it's irresistible.

Is it about leaving a trace behind you? Maybe. I believe that the only things that can give meaning to a life are those that can help other people's life. there are many fields that enable one to influence the life of others. charity of course, in the first place, that helps those who are the most in need. Activism, whi allow you to fight for ideas, for rights, for progress. But also politics, which can change things for the others directly. Scientific research enable progress, philosophy too.

I heard that Einstein said that when a man starts living for the others, he starts living for real. I feel like doing things, I feel like living for real.

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Quantum physics killed me #2/3
Big Loop

• 07 August 2008 at 14:48
• Revelations

Careful, this is gonna be delirium power 10.

Science seeks to explain phenomenons that surround us and, if possible, to predict events. The Grail of science would be a unique law from which all the other laws could be defined. I fantasised a lot on the possibilities of such a discovery. If we could find a law capable of explaining everything, then we could also predict everything, and even control everything! I then imagined, by getting inspiration, consciously or not, from numerous fictions, that there would be a machine in the future that would be powerful enough to modelise and compute the entire universe, but also its past and similarly, its future. This machine, this hyper-computer would be called Big Loop, and this idea that everything can be calculated is called determinism.

In the world of Big Loop, everything would be possible. We would have solved the biggest mysteries, met creatures living in other galaxies, found the remedy to all diseases, discovered the secrets of immortality. People wouldn't work anymore because machines would do everything. Without even realising, I had created for myself an entity that was omniscient, omnipotent and benevolent, that is... God! And it would also manage to resurrect us all in this future that would be the equivalent of paradise, where there would not be misery anymore, work anymore, duty anymore, only pleasure. (I won't go any further into the description of this future, it would take me too long!) I thought I had escaped death.

My goal was then to write a book that would describe this artificial paradise and how it could be reached, including a low-level reflexion on happiness, the "meaning of life", and stuff. At least, I would have done something with my life, I would have indicated a way to escape the infernal circle of death and misery.

But when you're an atheist and you choose science as a reference, given that research makes progress continuously, you have to expect surprises. I read Stephen Hawking's book in which he explains quantum mechanics. The principle of uncertainty who is introduced in it and who is largely accepted in the scientific community, pulverised my theory. If there's uncertainty, there's impredictability of the world, and then, impossibility to create a machine like Big Loop. And just like that, quantum physics ended my dreams of eternal fullness, and was forcing me to reconsider everything. This time, I have to keep in mind this important idea: I will die and my life is happening NOW!

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