- 30 August 2010 at 17:20
- Diary
It's been a year and a half since I've last had a winter, because last year, I cheated, I left to South America and I could dodge it!
But yesterday, I felt the cold outside, the cold in my bed, the cold in my head!
It makes me anxious.
I should have gone to Spain.
In the comments of my post on gay porn's new generation, I was joking about how porn would get included in soap operas. I also said that soon you'd have to be a sexy beast as well as a good boyfriend, and even maybe an intellectual. Well, here, it's not a soap opera, but a small budget movie, that is not even finished, that tells the story of a gay guy in San Francisco and sometimes there's sex, and you can see everything! It's called I Want Your Love and you can already watch the scene on the movie's website. Go and have a look, it's worth it.
OK, you've seen it?
So, it's interesting, it starts like a mainstream movie, with two people talking and then they have sex, like a mainstream movie, except that you see everything. First, in many movies, you have people having sex, it's just that the actors are not really doing it. Then, there have already been movies in which actors were really fycking, like In The Realm of the Senses or Catherine Breillat's movies. So it's nothing new, but what I find strange, is that most movies are only erotic. The characters should be fully fucking, it's part of the story, and then it's a bit hypocritical these movies where you can see the actors are moaning of pleasure but not their genitals.
In this movie, you can feel the character's intimacy (it's actually a very strong acting performance), so much that you wonder whether you're watching an actual couple, or amateur porn. The whispered words, the laughters, the hairs stuck in the mouth after the blowjob, everything that happens when you fuck with someone and however never happens in porn, where everything is choregraphed and overacted. It's the first time I see that on screen and somehow it reassures me. I thought I was the only idiot making jokes during sex.
I was reading the comments on porn actor Colby Keller's blog and a reader was saying he felt depressed after watching the movie, because it reminded him how lonely he is as a long-term single. I wondered whethere, when we were looking for a one-night stand, are we not looking, as well, for some intimacy with someone? That may indeed be the limit between porn and romantic comedy. Rom-coms are supposed to make you dream and idealise the great love and stuff, whereas porn only excites you. So the best thing is to get both! But I think it's a bit worrying as well. A study claims that people addicted to rom-coms have a very bad love life. Why? Because they would idealise too much what they see in movies, and would then get let down in life. I guess then that if porn was added to rom-coms, where perfect people with perfect bodies have perfect sex in a perfect house, blah blah blah, we would reach an idealisation level even higher, so an unreachable ideal. I think that if I Want Your Love ever ends on a perfect love relationship where the guys have a simultaneous orgasm, I'm gonna feel very lonely myself.
Anyway, I find it very interesting and I starts reading all the articles on what is already called "cuddle porn". I would have called it, after romantic comedy, romantic sodomy.
The Woerth-Bettencourt affair made the French suspect corruption inside the government and, as the spiral of revelations wouldn't stop, Sarkozy couldn't find any better than blaming immigrants and, just to make sure he's made enough noise, the "French of foreign origin". So, now hundreds of Roma are being deported (even though they're European!), parents whose children miss school could be financially penalised and go to jail, but it is also said that french people of foreign origin would be stripped of the french nationality if they try to kill policemen. I don't see how that would increase security in France. Since then, the UN condemned Nicolas Sarkozy's policies, the international press condemned Nicolas Sarkozy's policies, even the Pope condemned Nicolas Sarkozy's policies!
The masks have fallen. Nicolas Sarkozy is ready to dangerously stir xenophobia in France, and to attack the basic principle of republican equality, just to get re-elected in the next presidential election. It's just revolting and I will be on Saturday September 4, on the Place de la République at 2pm to protest with the Human Rights League.
Sarkozy is still very low in the polls and since the huge defeat of his party last March for the regional elections, it now appears possible to beat him in the 2012 presidential election. Moreover, the economy is not going well and he's about to cut public spending and social rights, but not the "tax shield" (a law he implemented, that prevents very rich people from paying too much taxes). However, people could very well re-elect him if he keeps stirring tensions as he's doing right now. Yes, we found our George W. Bush, our own worst President of the Republic!
- 16 August 2010 at 18:23
- Diary
I FINALLY could get the new Midnight Juggernauts album, ha ha!! And I was so lucky because even though I got it two months after its release, the shop had limited and signed editions, yeah!
I really liked the first single This New Technology, but I was rather disappointed by the second one, Vital Signs. And actually, I really liked the album, the first time I listened to it.
The 3 Aussies have kept in line with the previous album, it's rock with a space disco flavour. The first half of the album is really good, the second one, less. Many fans seem to say they have taken too different a direction. I don't think so, not at all actually. Their sound got more perfect. As a result, it may be less... fanciful, let's say. But it's still good.
The song The Great Beyond deserves its name given how high they go in it. Lifeblood Flow, Lara Versus The Savage Pack are very punchy. Regarding The Final Goodbye, I just regret it's not a bit longer, and I hope it's not self-fulfilling.
The lyrics tend to be different from the previous album, Dystopia, as they speak less about galaxies and stars, and more about life itself. You know, when you're a fan, they can talk any bollocks, you're still gonna like it and be much more merciful than with others. For example, when Ke$ha talks about love, I don't buy it, I think it's easy, silly and/or hypocritical and I hate it, but when it's Midnight Juggernauts, then I'm all like... sweet like honey. The chorus of Vital Signs is:
You've got to open up your mind and feel the love in your life
You've got to open up your heart and feel the love in your life
And, yeah, I totally understand what they mean.
I really like these ones from Lara Versus The Savage Pack, I was repeating myself this kind of stuff when I was travelling around South America:
Keep on building
Chasing that feeling
If we make it out of here alive
We'll get through anything
This title is a bit shit but you're gonna understand.
I came back in France so I watch all the shitty TV shows. I'm following L'Amour est dans le Pré ("Love is in the Meadow") and mind you, can't even think it's a shitty TV show, my brain is really getting fucked up. For those who don't know this show, it's about 10 single farmers who get the chance to pass an ad on TV and get to meet suitors. After a quick selection, two people can go ahead and spend a few days at the farm. If the show can sometimes be cynical or cruel with some, it also shows another side of the farming world that urban people like me don't know or have forgotten. I think the image of the farmer's job is being restored with that show, it's crazy! I don't think they have this show in other countries.
I've followed for the first time this year and I was rooting for the Philippe & Margarida couple!
Still, it would be really funny if they had a gay version! I can already imagine the guy: "Looking for young man who wants to get on my big truck". And I would apply to meet my big gruff man lost in the Limousin region, I would work hard to clean the cows' shit, and I would scream when he tells me he doesn't Björk's Homogenic. My rival would probably be a young, slim, hairless guy and I would have to fight to make him go, even if I have to burn his Dolce&Gabban bag!! And then I could make an unglamourous but M6-audience-known couple and, this way, make LGBT rights in the countryside progress.
Obviously, this show really fried my brains. Or it's due to the lack of sex. Or both. Shit, I'm fucked.
I didn't have sex for more than a year. Holy shit.
I have to say I have good excuses. First, I got scabies. Then, I was in Latin America and finding a gay bar there is a mission. Then I came back to France where I don't have proper accomodation yet. So, huh, don't judge me!
Does it actually bring me something to be "abstinent" like that? No. And also I totally forgot how sex works. My next sexual adventure might be... unsettling.
And then I started wanting to explore some alternatives, such as in this advert found on Embruns.
If you can't read it, go there.
I have to fix this situation asap...
- 08 August 2010 at 17:12
- Diary
A very interesting experiment to do is to listen to Boards of Canada in the parisian metro. You look at the people and you start thinking everybody is weird.
- 27 July 2010 at 17:27
- Diary
The prices of accomodation in Paris REALLY skyrocketed! 5 years ago, I lived in a furnished studio flat at Opera for 380 euros a month. Now, the same thing costs double! And I don't wanna go back to a studio flat on the 6th floor without lift and I don't wanna put more than a third of my salary in the rent either!
SO! If you hear about a little place, nice and cheap, let me know!
PLEASE!!!
PS: my budget is higher than 380 euros!
- 24 July 2010 at 13:55
- Diary
Coming back to Paris feels very strange. It looks nice, it's picturesque, but after living 4 years in London, I'm kind of disappointed.
- The most frustrating is when you speak to strangers, they think you want to ask them for money, or sleep with them, or that you're a lunatic. In London, it's regarded as normal.
- People don't know how to party. And they can't drink either!
- The gay scene sucks.
- The prices have skyrocketed.
- The metro really does smell. The other day, I was in it and I grabbed a bar. It was all sticky and that's the very moment I realised how I idealised Paris.
London is a tough city. But I really had idealised Paris too much in comparison.
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